Just a random post!

Heya! How goes things? Hopefully it’s all going good, despite all the bad news that we’ve all been hearing. And no, I’m not gonna blog about it, because quite honestly, I’ve tweeted about it, and retweeted like a hundred different tweets all about it, and I dun want to fill my blog with the same thing.

I will say this, however. If you are still backing “45”, please, do a favour. Press that red X at the top-right and never come back again.

So, what’s been happening? Well, in my own personal life… Not a lot. It wasn’t a great weekend, I have to say, and it culminated in a picture (not the “Fairytale Fantasia” that I’d mentioned before) falling down from where it was hanging and basically chopping out the wall socket for plugs. Thankfully, the thing that was plugged into the socket – the broadband router – still works. Somehow. The vacuum cleaner that was alongside didn’t come out quite as well. It still works. After a fashion. But I’m going to have to get a replacement for that soon.

Thankfully, since Monday, things have been getting back to normal, and I’m hoping that from Thursday evening onwards, I’ll be able to have a good, quiet weekend where I can just do what I want to do! *grins*

I know, I know, I shouldn’t complain, but…

Anyway! I’ve also asked people at work how long my contract’s going on for, because I like to be clear about these things – I got the feeling it’s either until end of September, or it’s open-ended. Either is fine with me, but I’d rather have it confirmed one way or another.

(As an aside, I have heard the rumour at work that there’s a possibility that they’re thinking of asking me to become more or less permanent, even though it’s not technically a developer job… I dunno, I don’t think they’ve really thought about it yet, and no-one officially asked me or sounded me out, it’s just something that I’ve heard mentioned…)

In terms of other job possibilities… Nothing as of yet. But, like I say, I just kind of need the weekends to start making themselves a bit less filled with… Yeah.

I just wanna say, I really really REALLY envy those people who seems to be unfazed or who can, despite everything else, just get on with these things. I’m staggered by how easy some people seems to find things, no matter what situation or how little time they have. *sighs* That’s pretty much what I have to learn to do, though. Make the most of the time I have available, even if it’s only a half-hour or so, just take hold of it and do something like write or whatever. But that’s something I need to work on. Especially if I’m serious about being a freelance writer and author of stories and everything else.

Okay, this is kind of short, but I just wanted to avoid writing about some specific things, because I’ve been tweeting like crazy about it, and I just wanted to have a moment’s respite from that. I’ll try and write again tomorrow or Friday, so see you then!

I feel I should be wearing a beret for this…

Heya! Yeah, I know, two days in a row, I’m definitely getting right back into it! *grins* There were a few things that I wanted to write about last night, and at the moment, I can’t remember all of them – but that’s pretty much par for the course. I think sometimes, I just forget about things because if I don’t, I’m always gonna be blogging and all that all the time…!

I definitely want to write about a few different things right now, and I think… Hmm… I think today, Imma gonna talk about art. Now, before anyone rolls their eyes and say, “Oh, look at this girl, pretending to be an art critic, honestly!”, I will say this: I am not an art critic. Quite frankly, there’s a lot of so-called “art” out there that I just dun see the point of. Why anyone would think a sheep cut in half, or an unmade bed, or some weird blotches on a piece of canvas is art, I will never know. And I genuinely don’t see how anyone could pay millions for something that looks grotesquely horrible, but was done by a particular person. Like… Why?

However, I do like have pictures on the wall, but the pictures that I have on the wall isn’t what I think most people would have. Due to my mental history, I’ve found that one of the best things that can help, especially in winter, is having bright colours around the place, and a couple or so years back, I was in Hobbycraft (I was looking for something else entirely different – I think I was looking for blank playing-cards size cards for an idea that I had about a board game – coincidentally, I didn’t find any. Bleh. *lol*) and walking past the puzzles section when I saw “Fairytale Fantasia” by Aimee Stewart (the picture you can see up there), and I just fell straight in love with it. I bought the puzzle, and some puzzle glue, and an hanging frame that day. *grins*

Now that I’ve moved into a place of my own, that picture is now hanging up, and I love it. Yes, you can see the individual pieces of the puzzle, and if I was given the opportunity to buy it as a picture (and not a puzzle picture), I’d go out and buy it. But it’s still without doubt my favourite picture to hang up, and the one thing that I thought would make the place looks a lot more colourful. And quite honestly, I would have “Fairytale Fantasia” above all those pictures that supposely cost millions, because not only is it (to me) actual real art, it’s also subjects that I love.

But really, art isn’t just framed pictures, and it’s definitely not – no matter how much stupid dumb people want to pretend it is – dead sheep or dirty beds, art is a lot more around us than people think it is. Take, for example, something that most of us look at daily, any video game that you play – even from the Spectrum era – someone had to be there to set up the graphics, and sometimes those graphics can almost be breathtaking. Not just in terms of quality (come on, the Spectrum only had 48K of memory!), but in terms of imagination – think about something like Journey, for example. That was beautiful.

Or think about webcomics… A lot of people read them on a daily basis and again… I’d have pictures drawn by those webcomics artists – like Fragile’s Shouri and so on – over those that cost millions.

Point I’m trying to make is, we sometimes don’t see what we’re lucky enough to get in front of us, and for some reason, society has decided that the only way to put a value on art is the name of the artist. We’re not looking at what the art is actually is, we’re thinking, “But who made it?” first. Otherwise, how can we explain why something that is made by one particular artist is worth billions and something that is made in the same style (not talking about forgeries, but let’s say there’s a brand new picture in the same style and you know who the artist is) by a different artist is somehow worth 5p in the car boot sale?

We should be looking at what we are looking at (I know, I know, but I couldn’t think of a better way to phrase it!) and not thinking about names or anything. You’re not buying the picture, you’re buying the name. And that’s sad.

And no matter what happens, I will continue to prefer pictures like “Fairytale Fantasia”, pictures drawn by artists who do webcomics, by artists who do video games, over those that are frankly bleh, no matter how much money that – frankly, in my opinion – people who have no taste think they’re worth.

Okay, now that I’ve probably offended pretty much every art critic and the art world, Imma gonna stop here for now, but I’ll be back later! *grins* See you guys soon!

Reaction to the booing of Justin Gatlin

Heya! Was gonna write last night, but… *shakes head* Work was too cold – for some reason, they always think the air-conditioning system needs to be turned to a level that’s right for antarctic animals. I think Imma gonna have to bring in a blanket today, so that if and when they do that again, I can at least have another layer to prevent me getting frostbite. And before you go round dismissing that as hyperbole… Well, it’s a slight extaggeration, but it was definitely too cold at work. So I spent some time trying to get warm again. But at least I also remember that I need to get a blanket out to bring with me to work! *grins*

So. There’s been a lot of discussion (at least, from what I’ve seen on social media and in some media outlets) about the fact that Justin Gatlin has been racing in the Athletics World Championships after having failed 2 drug tests over the past however long it’s been. And, obviously, the reason why there’s been a lot more discussion over this is because Usian Bolt is retiring after this, and Gatlin beat Bolt.

Now… I have to say, I don’t agree with drug-taking at all. But I do think that, sometimes, people do overreact when it comes to people who are returning from a ban. If it was me, I would say that the minimum ban for an athlete – provided, by the way, that the drug(s) taken is something that definitely enhance their performance (as in, if they took “recreational drugs” (Seriously, who thought of that term??), their sentence should be slightly lighter – should be something like 4 years, and a ban from at least the following Olympics after their return, because the Olympics is probably the main reason for them racing in the first place, so being banned from the next two Olympics (one while under the 4-years ban, plus the following Olympics after that) should be a severe enough punishment for them.

But we also have to accept that sometimes athletes are under a lot of pressure, and sometimes, just like the rest of us, they will make the wrong decisions. And I find myself asking, should we seriously punish these people forever for making a wrong decision? We have no idea what kind of pressure they’re under or anything.

And, to be quite honest, we are apparently living in a world where a white man rapist can have a six-month sentence and be let out after three. We are apparently living in a world where a footballer that has already been convicted of rape (and was only given a weak 5 years sentence) can be let go because in his court case, it was deemed acceptable for the lady that was raped to have her sexual history being spoken about in court. (And I’m still staggered by both of those decisions, quite honestly – and just proves to me that so many men still seems to think that rape is not a serious crime at all, when it’s probably the second most horrible crime that can ever be.)

If ANYONE is seriously gonna turn round and tell me that drug-taking is a much more serious and severe crime than rape, then Imma gonna ask you to press that X in the top-right corner, go away and never come here again.

*calms down* Anyway… The point is, I don’t think that we should stop someone from competing after they’ve served their ban. They should also accept that they will be tested more frequently after that, but if they’ve served their bans – and Gatlin has – and they’re racing without drugs… Then they should be allowed to race. He’s served his time, end of story.

What I will argue against, though, is allowing people to gain unfair advantages after coming back from a drug ban. Like Maria Sharapova who, after returning from her ban, was given a bunch of wild cards to enter some tournaments. Sorry, but no. She was banned because she took drugs, and what she should have been doing is working her way back up the ranks normally. Challenger tournaments, whatever they’re called, she should have been competing in those, and climbing the ranks that way. No wild cards freebies, nothing. I’m happy for her to compete again – as long as she’s drug-free, of course – but she should not be given any extra help after returning, like allowing her to compete in the big tournaments by giving her a wild card. She should earn the rights to compete on her own merit. If she can do that, great, good luck to her I say.

The only reason she got wild cards, by the way, is because she’s a big name, and the tournaments probably gain some more money as a result for that. Still not right.

I do think it was wrong of people to boo Gatlin. I think – I hope, anyway – that a lot of it is because it was Bolt’s last competition, and they were hoping for a fairy-tale ending, and when Bolt was beaten – and let’s remember, in the 100m, he came third – by someone who was found guilty of drugs-taking in the past, well… I think a lot of people just kind of reacted in the wrong way, and then other people just joined in.

And let’s not forget that Bolt himself said that Gatlin was a worthy winner, and he has no complaints about him competing or anything.

Okay… Gonna stop here for now. Sometimes later, I might talk a bit more about stuff that’s been happening in other sports (the allegations of bullying that’s been happening in some of the England / Britain teams, for example), but right now… Gotta get ready for work! See you soon!

The new football season’s here… Already!

Heya! How goes things? Hope you’re enjoying the start of your weekend (at least, for most of us, it’s the start of a well-deserved two days break from work, right??).

I’ve not posted anything about the Women’s Euro 2017 football tournament because of various reasons. Primarily because, like I said before, I haven’t had any interest in watching a football game at all since… I dunno when was the last time I saw a match? As in properly sat down and watched one? I can’t remember. Probably last summer, when the Euro 2016 was on, but I dun recall actually watching a match from start to finish. There was definitely a lot of half-watching going on, when it was TV on in the background and me playing a game on the tablet or handheld console.

So, this time round, adding to that the whole move and get everything sorted out kind of thing, when I did remember about it, I just didn’t feel like putting it on.

Plus, to be honest, I was kind of expecting the England ladies’ team to crash and burn after the manager’s announced the squad 6 or so months before the tournament kicked off, saying that he didn’t care about form or anything. So, when I saw how they did in the group games (didn’t watch it, but kept eye out for the scores), I was pleasantly surprised, and even more so when they won against France. Unfortunately, they didn’t turn up for the game against the Netherlands, which is a shame because they were in a good position to actually win an international trophy.

I still don’t agree with the idea of selecting the squad 6 months before the tournament, but I have to put my hands up and admit that I was wrong; it didn’t affect how well the team played for the most part. The game against the Netherlands – every team has their off-day, it was just unfortunate that England ladies’ off-day was in the semi-finals.

And now this weekend, we are seeing the mens return from their short break and start off their 10 months slog through the new football season. And the ladies will be starting their new winter season schedule as well (not sure when their season starts, though…)

I can safely say, though, that the ladies (Bristol City Womens, although I just call them Bristol Ladies) will struggle through this season. I think we are basically staring at a long relegation battle with at least two other clubs (Yeovil and Everton). I know the manager has plans to get the ladies out of that bottom tier of clubs and into the next one, and I hope he can, but I think this season will be a long struggle. I’m optimistic that they will survive though!

The mens… Well, Bristol City Men, they were disappointing for large blocks of the last season, but I am… cautiously optimistic that they won’t get into a relegation battle this time round. I don’t see them challenging for the play-offs or anything, but it’d be good to see them safely in mid-table this time round.

Bristol Rovers, though… They did really well last season, much better than I was expecting. I would expect them to be challenging for the play-off spots, but whether they’d be ready to get promoted to the Championship… I’m not sure they are. It’d be hard for them to do that, but maybe next year…? Depends on who they get, really.

As for the Premier League and all that… Meh, who care? *lol* Okay, okay… Honestly, I think you’d be hard pressed to see beyond Chelsea and Manchester City for the title. While you can’t cross out Arsenal, Liverpool, Manchester United or Tottenham Hotspur, I honestly can’t see them able to dislodge the top two. As for there being another Leicester City moment… No, no way. That was a total and utter one-off.

I have heard of the frankly obscene amount of money that’s being changed hands between PSG and Barcelona over Neymar, and I just think it’s ridiculous. I thought Paul Pogba last summer was ridiculous, but this is just insane ridiculous. 200 million?? Think what you could do with that 200 million!

However… The very best of luck to Neymar, and hope he can cope with the pressure. For that amount of money, everyone’s pretty much gonna expect him to score five goals in every match and win every title possible with PSG.

Okay… Think that’s all the football stuff I wanted to talk about over with! If you really want me to talk more, let me know what you want me to write about! My twitter’s open for suggestions and all, after all! (I dunno about comments here, despite the new look…)

Boo!

Heya! I’m back! And back for good, too!

Whew… Again, I have to say sorry for not blogging for so long! It’s just been… Quite frankly, it’s been a struggle to do anything or think of anything more than just wanting to get on the tablet and play games or dig out some old comics and read them again. *hee* (And, yes, I have a lot of old Beanos – I even have some dating back to 1993 which is crazy, considering I would’ve been like 5 then…!)

Those 1993 Beanos, though, they’re not complete. It seems that way back then, whoever owned them originally decided they wanted to just keep those pages with “The Bash Street Kids” and “Dennis the Menace and Gnasher” (Note to Americans: The Dennis the Menace from the Beano is different to the Dennis the Menace you’re aware of, so don’t be too confused about talk about Gnasher and everything else! (History: The US’ Dennis the Menace is credited as the older one, but not by much – It was originally debuted in US newspapers on 12th March 1951 (according to Wikipedia), while the British Dennis the Menace debuted in the Beano on the comic dated 17th March 1951, but was apparently released on the 12th March 1951 – and in those days, they probably never heard of each other until much later, most likely. These days, though, I think the Beano has decided to further distance the two Dennises by just calling it “Dennis and Gnasher” – but back in 1993, it was still “Dennis the Menace and Gnasher”.)

Anyway… It’s fine. From what I can see, I still have complete Beanos dating back to 1996 or thereabouts, and that was probably when I’d started getting and reading them myself. It’s a bit of a difference, reading the Beanos back then and reading them now. I have to say, I kinda prefer the latest versions, because the latest versions of the Beano has their sarcastic kind of laugh-out-loud moments, whereas the Beanos of yesteryear are a little bit more… well, straightforward (sometimes funny, but sometimes, you really can see that some of the stuff they did then, they’d never do now…)

As for some of the celebrities they’ve featured… Well, let’s just say I spotted a certain TV personality who’s also a painter, originally from Australia… Yeesh. Those did _NOT_ age well. But to be fair to the Beano in those days, no-one has a crystal ball. As far as most people knew back then, that certain TV personality was a decent human being.

Anyway… I was kinda hoping to have been back before now, but by the time it’d got to mid-July, and things were only just starting to settle down (what with everything that’s been going on…), I decided then that I’d pretty much just hold off until the 1st August (today!) before going back to blogging. That way, I can make sure everything’s settled, I can make sure everything that I wanted / needed to do can be done, the whole lot.

And so it worked out. All the work that was required on the house (roof and water pipes – basically, the previous owner had left this place empty for over a year, and only did the visual requirements in order to make it sellable, the stuff that you couldn’t see – and quite honestly, I didn’t see anything wrong with the roof, my dad did – he obviously didn’t sort out. And I say obviously because quite honestly… I probably wouldn’t’ve, if I was selling and I couldn’t see anything wrong, and nor would pretty much anyone else) has been done, all the furniture (old and new) is now here and everything placed where I wanted it to be, and there’s a bit more colour around the place. I probably need a bit more bright colours in the place, but for now… It’ll do until I see something new.

I’m also getting settled into work. The month contract I had with the company has been extended (I believe they said until end of September, but I ought to check…), which is useful. It’ll allow me to keep earning money, get my finances in order (after all the moving and everything else), and give me more time to write and job-hunt for something a little more permanent, or a bit more solid. Whether that’s in writing or development or something else, I dunno. I’m not confident I’ll find another development job, but to be quite honest… I’m not all that sure I want to anyway. Only reason I would, is to allow me to earn while exploring writing options.

Writings… Well, I still need to try and figure out some way of being able to put myself out there as a freelance writer, but I honestly have no idea how to, and I’m useless at “selling” myself – even in interviews for development jobs in the past, I’m not good at that. But at least this way, with a 4-days working week, I’ve got an extra day to try and find ways of doing so, plus more time to get writing.

Which is gonna be starting properly from this Friday onwards – I was kind of hoping to have made a start last weekend, but… Wasn’t feeling good, plus I had to wait for deliveries and everything else so… Yeah. Just turned out that August is a brand new start for me in a lot more ways than I originally thought.

I’m also planning to get back to my diet from today. Obviously, with everything that’s been going on, my eating habits has gone totally wayward, so this week, I’m planning to just get it back to normal – like a proper breakfast and a proper evening dinner. Once that’s done, then I’ll start working on the actual diet, with exercises and everything else. My current aim is to be close to my optimal weight come Christmas time.

Outside of writing, I’m looking forward to getting back to playing video games on my consoles and everything else – that’d also been put to one side. Outside of the games on my tablet, the only other game I’ve kind of played was the download-only Ace Attorney games (and I wasn’t really getting into the Spirit of Justice one, to be honest… Think I left that before going to court in the third case (Rite of Turnabout) I’ll get back to it one day, but right now… I’m just looking at my shelves – both “latest” and “retro” collections – and trying to decide which one to play.

Oh yeah, I have my retro collection set up in my bedroom! 😀 I have my Spectrums, my PS1, PS2 and Gamecube in my bedroom, so whenever I want to, I can just load up an old game, and get gaming! And my Spectrums still works! 😀 I don’t think all the tapes are fine, but from what I can tell, most of them are definitely okay. It’s just a question of working out which ones are okay, and which ones aren’t. I probably eventually will have to get one of those new-gen Spectrums, but the last I know, there were like, two competing groups and I dun want to get both. So I thought I’d just wait and see which one is left standing.

But for now… I’m looking forward to getting back to gaming and writing and all!

Okay… Gonna stop here for now. Hope you’re doing great, and see you soon!

First post from my new place!

Heya!!!

This is my first blog post (and there will be many more to come!) from my new place!

It has been a long time coming, and I’m sorry for the long pause between blogs, but there really have been a fair amount of stuff to do and by the time I’m finished with the plans for the day, all I want to do is pretty much sleep and just forget about everything and game.

Why was it a bit tough? Well… The main problem was in trying to get everything set up – that is, the utilities, broadband – as well as moving things over. I might’ve gotten rid of a lot of things over the years, but some of the stuff I’ve been digging out of the cupboards and everything else, I’ve been like, “When did I get this…?” *lol* Honestly, it was pretty much a case of “out of sight, out of mind”. And I was pretty much deciding to just put it all in boxes and take a few over every time I went to the new place. And believe me, there was a _lot_ of boxes… So I was spending a lot of time clearing out cupboards, drawers, etc, and putting them in boxes ready for me to take. And then taking them out of boxes and putting it into new boxes to try and take up every last bit of gap available…! *grins* But, to be honest, I was pretty much driving stuff over like 5 times a week.

Some of the utilities stuff was tougher than it should’ve been because of the fact that I’m deaf, but… *shrugs* Anyway… Everything was sorted out gradually over the past couple weeks, and the last stumbling block (to my mind) was the broadband access, which was switched on and ready to go today. So… With that in mind, I was more or less ready to move over. The worse bit was the council tax, I had to pop over to the council offices to talk to someone. But I’ve now filled in the form, and handed it over, so hopefully I should find out how much council tax I’ll be paying monthly shortly.

The old place, I’m still renting (I handed in my month’s notice, but I don’t officially leave the flat until sometimes around 14th July), and there’s still stuff in there – more than there should be, to be honest – but I’m now more or less moved in.

Why am I saying “more or less”? Well… Because my eldest brother was gonna help me move the furniture over, (because I obviously can’t fit a bed and things like that in a car! *grins*) but this morning, he received some weird news… The company he hired a van with contacted him and said they can’t loan him the van because he apparently doesn’t live in the house that he said he does. And he’s been living in his place with his wife and children for at least the past two years. *shakes head* So… The only furniture I have in this place for now is the beanbag, some small tables and chairs, and a whole bunch of cushions and the like. My intention is to basically sleep on the beanbag / cushions until I can arrange a van hire with a driver myself. (Well, I say myself, but my dad has apparently decided to take that on himself…)

All the other furniture is still at my old place. *sighs* Oh well. It means a bit of a delay to getting the place how I want it, but it’ll get there sooner or later. *nods* Fingers crossed, it’ll be sometimes next week when all the furniture comes over. And then… Once that’s there, I’ll look around and see what I think I should get and plan for when to get them. I’m pretty sure that there’s at least a larder or something like that that’s required, but… Again, just gonna take the time to look around once everything’s there and decide.

My knee’s aching again as well. Probably should’ve kinda expected that, what with all the lifting and packing and everything else. But with any luck, I’ll have more room to do exercises, including knee exercises, so that I can make it a lot tougher from now on. (Yeah, I have plans for my new place, just gotta see if I can fit it all in here!)

Oh, and I did something to my finger (thankfully, on my right hand (I’m left-handed)) and it’s a little swollen and sore… But considering the weight of some of the boxes I’ve been struggling with… A single swollen finger is pretty good going!

I’ve also been talking to various people about jobs (still IT jobs, despite my lack of enthusiasm for it, and all). Mostly e-mails, and mostly dealing with people who think the only thing worth communicating with is a phone (as per normal, considering my experiences with trying to get jobs previously…), but there is one good lining… The company that I used to work for, the one that made me redundant in May, has contacted me and asked if I’d be willing to work for 4 days per week as a data engineer – it’s not IT, I won’t be doing development, but I will be working with SQL and getting the required data for reports and the like. It pays less than my old job, and it’s only for a month (although can be extended) and I said yes. So I’ll be starting this contractor position on the 3rd July.

The 4-days week is something I asked for. Firstly, it’s to give me more time to get on with writing – and I fully intends to write a lot more, especially once everything’s all set up here in this new place – and also, if I need to go talk to other people regarding potential future jobs, I can do so on that day, without having to arrange to take a day off. Plus, to be honest, I think a 4-days work week would be better for me than a 5-days one. That extra freedom to write, I think, is something I’d need.

I do have my suspicions that the company’s kind of hoping that things will pick up somewhat for the development department shortly, and if that’s the case then I’ll be more or less on hand to get my old development job back, but I could be reading too much into it. Either way, not holding my breath, just gonna treat this job as a way to earn some extra money which will be useful at this moment in time until I can get everything sorted with old place and new place.

And that’ll do for now. I’ll try and write more either tomorrow or Sunday – so I’ll see you soon! 😀

House and ennui

Heya!

I kind of own an explanation for the fact that this blog (and my twitter account) has been quiet for the past few weeks, and why it’s gonna be quiet for the next couple of weeks (at least).

I bought a house, as you know – and honestly, I still really dun feel like it’s mine. I’ve been there a few times now, and I still look around and think it’s not really mine. *lol* But… There you go. Just have to keep getting used to the fact that I have a house now. The main problem that I’ve been having with it is trying to get everything sorted out with it.

To be honest, it sometimes feels a little bit overwhelming, so I’ve been breaking things down into little pieces so that I can cope with each bit at a time…

That is, all the utilities and stuff like that, and the fact that there have been so much… bleh. My dad had to phone up the gas and electricity people (I imagined I would’ve been able to send them an e-mail, but I was struggling to find out which utility company it was, and by the time we found out, my dad decided that he’d give them a call… So, yeah…). I managed to sort out the water company. I think. Filled in the online form anyway, so just gotta wait for them to send me the bill or whatever. Phone line and broadband… I’ve contacted the company that I want to handle it, and was hoping they’d come and do it on Monday, but they’ve pushed it back to switching everything over on the 12th and switching the broadband on on the 16th. So I won’t be moving in until then.

No clue regarding the engineer. I had them down to come over sometimes in the afternoon on the 5th, so I’ve just e-mailed them to hopefully get an answer soon.

Council is being a pain… Just have to hope they’ll eventually get me the information that I need. Outside of that, that’s pretty much all the utilities stuff done. Thankfully.

In the meantime, I’ve been taking in boxes and the like so that I can start packing everything up ready for the move. I’ve taken some stuff over, but not a lot. And I really need to start packing soon…

Oh well. Outside of that, I’ve been suffering from some kind of ennui. I dun know why, but people are expecting me to be all excited and everything else about the house and I’m like… Meh. Guess that’s part of why I’ve been dragging my feet a little bit. And it’s not just about the house, it’s every part of my life at the moment. I did wonder if it was because of the fact that I’d been made redundant, but… *shakes head* I dun think so, and I don’t think it’s depression – it’s just… ennui.

But I’m hoping that yesterday – I started packing some stuff and moved it over to the house, plus I went to see my nieces (who, with their family, came to visit their grandparents) and I feel like I’m starting to move away from whatever it was. So… Yeah, hopefully, I’ll now be in a position to get more things done from now on. It’d be nice, definitely.

I’ve got a couple more things to do – I gotta write a letter to notify the landlord of my current flat that I’ll be leaving the property at a given date, and I gotta make a decision as to who to pick to get the big stuff moved – I was not looking forward to checking out moving companies and the like – but then my oldest brother said if I’d hire a van, he’d help me move everything… And that would be cheaper, if a bit more of a hassle. *lol* I’m tempted to go for that, though. But I’d need to give him time to arrange when he could do so. And then it’s a question of finding a van… *cries*

But yeah… At the moment, I’ve been combatting ennui, plus I’m getting a bit of stress from the whole house thing that… Everything else, the blog, twitter and so on, have been put to the back burner for now. I’m hoping that, from the 16th onwards, I’ll be in a much better place, both mentally and physically, and from there, I’ll be back blogging and tweeting and everything else again.

Anyway… That’s what happening. Not a lot of fun, but definitely thinking I’ll be back properly posting and everything else from the 16th onwards. I might post one or two times in between, but… Probably best not to expect to see much from me until then!

See you soon!

A political rant, I’m afraid…

Heya!

How’s your weekend going? Me… Well, to be honest, the days have been blurring into each other lately. *lol* But never mind… Things’ll be different soon enough!

I’ve gotta write a list of what I need to do and who to contact with regards to moving places. Like… I’ve gotta contact utilities companies to inform them that I’ll be officially moving out at X date (still to be determined), landlord and all that… Hmm… Same goes for the broadband people, I guess. I’m planning on setting up a new provider when I move, kind of thing. Simply because when I had broadband set up here, I was with O2, and they were good. Unfortunately, they then decided they wanted to sell out to the evil corporation. At the time, I was hopeful of moving away, but… *shrugs* As it turned out, I ended up having about 4 or 5 aborted moves away from this place, but hopefully this one will go smoothly. (Out of those 4 or 5 aborted moves, most were planned move to rent something closer to where I worked, but then things happened, job-wise or place-wise, which meant they didn’t work out. Which is probably why I wasn’t counting chickens before they hatched for ages. I suppose I still shouldn’t, until Friday, but… Everything seems to be going okay, so… Yeah.)

Talking about evil corporations and the internet, I see in the USA, the organisation that are supposed to be looking after things and making sure it works for Americans have decided that they will ignore everyone that have consistently told them it was a very bad idea and listened to the money instead. Some of which, I’m sure, is mysteriously disappearing into their pockets, right? *smh*

And here, well, the snooper’s charter is gonna get even worse if the Tories stay in charge. They’re planning on basically making it even worse for everyone. Apart from themselves, of course. They’re planning to give themselves extemptions, because, of course, no-one should ever know what their MPs are doing, meaning they can keep committing all the illegal activities that they do…

Internet freedom, net neutrality, all that, is essential. Especially the way that things have been going, both in the USA, and here in the UK. The way they’ve been going, the dictator in North Korea is starting to take notes in how to supress the downtrodden and how to control the population.

Extreme? Not even close to it, I’m afraid… Our current Prime Minister is showing her true self, and the right-wing media that we have are basically falling over themselves to say she is absolutely wonderful and the best leader that we have ever had. Whereas, quite honestly, she’s going so far as to make the war criminal begins to look remotely decent. And that’s horrible. There is absolutely nothing that should make the war criminal be able to stand up and say “At least I wasn’t as bad as…” but the Prime Minister right now…?

The problem is… People are saying Corbyn’s unelectable. I don’t think he is, I means, you’ve only got to look at the USA. People thought “45” was so unelectable, he would be gone within the first few weeks of the Republican’ts presidental hopefuls selection process. But he didn’t. And when the Democrats decided that, no matter what, they would select Hillary Clinton, well… The threat of “45” becoming President was real, and it turned out that way.

The problem is… “45” did it all despite the numerous voices against him, and he has proven himself over and over again that he is far worse than what everyone knew would be the case. Here… We don’t have that same vocal opposition in terms of media against our current Prime Minister, and we are seeing, far too many times, that people have swallowed the utterly inane rants backed by the right-wing media. Why do you think we’ve got Brexit facing us? Why do you think a rancid racist neo-nazi managed to get his UKIP party so much facetime and gets seats in the European parliament where they pretty much take full advantage and get as much money for themselves as possible?

The only reason they haven’t had much in the way of seats here in the UK elections is because we’ve got a frankly ridiculous system of electing MPs, which has been set up so that the rich white men can keep as much power as possible. And, of course, they’re unwilling to change the system to a fair one.

I just hope that we will get a lot of people voting in the General Election in a few weeks, and that the Tories will suffer a massive defeat. It’s the only way we’re gonna get anywhere to seeing a country that isn’t run by the few for the few, which is the Tories’ policy.

…I just don’t understand why so many people think that Conservatives (like our Tories, like the USA’s Republican party and so on) are worth voting for. They’ve proven themselves over and over again that they only care about the rich white male 1%, and they will do everything possible to make sure that they get away with as much as possible while taxing and taking everything possible on the other 99%. And yet… People still vote for them. People who’ve seen their livelihoods, their jobs, everything taken away from them due to the conservatives’ actions… And they still blindly vote for them. Just… Why?

I think it’s because too many people just believe the show, and ignore the words. Americans fell for “45” bluster, and too many Brits are believing in the right-wing media. They believe that a desiccated corpse, who has shown very clearly that he will screw every single employee he has to save one person he likes and who want to take as much money as possible and tell every single person in the country what to do, somehow has their welfare at heart. They believe that a state-run media outlet will report fair and square, despite the fact that, especially over the past few years, they have becomes far more right-wing and give far more attention to the far-right than they should.

There need to be a change. We cannot, and should never, allow the rich, white, male 1% dictate what the rest of us should do. And we need to start in the General Election, we need to get the Tories out, and consign them to the annuals of history as a bad chapter.

A mixed week…

Heya! How’s your week been going? Hopefully it’s all been going decent for you and all!

Me… Ehh… It’s been a bit of a mixed week, I have to say. House-wise, things are progressing and sometimes next week, everything will be complete. Apparently. *gulps* I still dunno if I’m really all that ready to be a house-owner, but… You know, I’ve gone this far, might as well see it through and hopefully it’ll all work out. Hopefully!

Job-wise, well… I’ll be honest, I have been looking, but I think there’s a part of me that’s pretty much saying, “wait until you’ve moved and settled down…” Which, I guess makes sense. Mind, it’s not like that I’ve seen that many jobs that’s suitable for me yet. Doesn’t stop people from trying to send me absolute ridiculous job offers, though. I even had one that asked if I’d want to apply for a SQL manager position in Krakow, Poland. *shakes head* *shudders* Can you even _imagine_ the problems I’d have with that. A Manager position, managers goes through a lot of meetings and everything else, not to mention the fact that it’d all be in Polish… I have enough trouble with English already, thank you very much!

Not to mention the fact that we are talking about Poland. Let’s just say that their reputation for black people, or LGBT+ people, isn’t exactly… sterling? Not as bad as a particularly large country eastwards, but certainly not the best. *shakes head* Needless to say… I deleted that e-mail without even bothering to reply.

Oh yeah, the Polish thing… Well, I am of the firm belief that, if you are going to go and work in another country, which speaks a different language to you – for example, Polish in Poland – you should be expected and willing to learn that language, and start to do so before you even go there. You cannot, and should not, expect everyone in that country to be able to speak your own language to you. There are exceptions, of course – refugees, etc – but by and large… If you’re planning on going to work in a country that speaks a different language to you, you should be willing to communicate in that country’s language. Same for every country. If you plan to work in Britain, you should be willing to learn English, you go to Spain, be willing to learn Spanish, and so on.

As for other people that e-mailed me… Well, most of them asked for a phone number. As usual. And when I say I dun have a phone due to being deaf… Their “interest” definitely vanished! *rolls eyes*

Whatever… Like I say, it’s probably for the best because it does means I’ll have a bit more time to focus on actually getting everything done regarding moving and everything else…

Games-wise… Well, I’m getting back to playing seriously (while still having fun) and writing my own kind of self-guides as to how to play it. You know, should I ever want to play that game again! *grins*

Writing… Well, I’m writing. It’s still mostly the guide thing, though. I’m still hoping that by doing the guide-writing, I’ll be able to start focusing again on story and Yore! stuff. Although, again, I think there’s a part of me that’s whispering, “…wait until you move…”, but I dun really want to, to be honest.

…The problem with waiting is, there’s this kind of like… big expectation that by moving, I’m gonna magically find more time, I’m gonna feel a lot better, a lot more relaxed and everything else? That’s… Not gonna happen. The move will be good for me, but I need to bring my expectations down somewhat. Otherwise, well… It could be a big knock to the confidence that I’ve got right now.

…Still… Guess things will be moving on quicker from next week, so… Might as well take the time to relax while I still can, right? *grins*

Okay, I’ll stop here for now, but I will write another post tomorrow, okay? See you soon!

I’m back!

HEYA!!!!

Yep, I’m back, and better than before! *lol*

Okay, okay, I guess I owe you an explanation as to why I’ve not been posting for a couple weeks or so… The honest truth is, after I got made redundant (yeah, unfortunately, it was confirmed that I was one of the ones to be made redundant… *shrugs*), I just felt… tired, in fact, I was exhausted. I guess all the emotions over the preceding weeks, plus the fact that I’d been working more or less flat out at the company and everything (despite them saying they didn’t have any work… *rolls eyes*), and – despite the fact that I was bracing for it and all – I was also feeling a little down. Not depressed down, just down.

And when I tried to write – you know, take advantage of the extra time I now have and all – I found I couldn’t focus, I couldn’t think. That, despite the fact that I know I have like whole chunks of the story in my mind ready to put to paper… *smh*

So… After a day of this, I sat and thought to myself, what’s the best thing to do? Well… Maybe the best thing to do would be to more or less take a total break from everything. At least a weekend break, or a week, if necessary (as it turned out, it was just over a week), just relax, play games without taking it seriously (and by that, I means, just play games without thinking about what to do further down the line in the game – so I was playing games like Dragon Quest Builders and all I was doing was just exploring and seeing what I can do and everything. I wasn’t really thinking about the quests or anything like that. I means, yes, I know I was supposed to, but… *grins*), read comics (or even binge-read some of the comics – like Fine Sometimes Rain and so on), anything, just give the brain a complete break from everything.

And it worked. I feels completely recharged and I’m getting on with things now. I’m also – having checked out some of the sites that’s all about how to keep yourself motivated – using some of the suggestions mentioned to help keep me going (because I know how easy it would be for me to slip back into old habits, and that’s something I dun ever want to do…)

So, what’s the plan moving forward? Well… I’ve got a house that I’m still buying and moving into in the next month or so (I know, I know… I was gonna withdraw from the purchase, but after talking it through with parents and all, it turned out that if I withdrew, I’d not only have to pay for what we’ve done already, but job centres, etc, would be expecting me to use the deposit money that parents gave me explicitly for the house to keep myself alive, etc, before they’d give me any benefits… And, yet, somehow, other people seems to have no problems getting paid more money on benefits than I’ve ever earned in a year… *smh*)

Anyway… Parents are going to help with cost of mortgage repayments until I get a job, after which I will be paying them back as well as paying off the mortgage myself.

I think their expectation is that I will be able to find another IT job (haha) but we’ll see. *shrugs* I dun expect to, but I will look for one, along other jobs that I think I could do. In the meantime, the plan is to spend as much of my time as possible (when not job hunting or replying to e-mails or anything like that) writing, and trying to look into putting myself out there for freelance writing, if I can do that.

I am certainly planning to focus on my stories, on Yore! stuff, and so on. All the stuff that I’ve been telling myself that I’m gonna do. Well, I’ve got time now, and I’m getting on with it!

I was down for a while after being made redundant and everything else, but now I’m back, I feel better, and I’m writing and doing everything that I wanna do. I just hope that by the end of it all, I’ll have a lot to show for it – I’m certainly praying for it! 😀

See you soon!