Fighting off ennui…

Heya! How goes things? How’s the weekend going / been (depending on time zones, obviously!) for you? Hopefully not too bad. Here… Well, I’ve been writing. Not anywhere near as much as I wanted to, but I realised – actually, Friday, I realised this – that I was pretty much in a state of ennui, and I needed to do something to actually get rid of it, move to something where I wanna be, a mood that will see me write loads and everything. Of course, the problem was how to get rid of it!

So, the first step was the determination – basically, if I couldn’t be bothered getting on with things, then I was never gonna get anywhere fast. After that, it was basically pretty much finding a way to get on with things, (Getting back to blogging helped, by the way!) and I figured the best thing to do was to put myself on some kind of schedule. It’s not major, but knowing that I’ve given myself a few hours here or there to write was definitely a major step forward. I’ll probably have to do this for the next month or so, get myself back into that habit and everything and more or less force myself into actually getting things done instead of sliding back into ennui.

And this weekend was a good weekend in terms of doing so. Like I say, I didn’t write much – and most of it was the game guides that I write (for myself) but the important thing is that I’m actually back writing now. I dunno the word count, but it’s definitely something like 5000 or so. On a good day, I know I can do over twice that – and that just on a single day – so I’ve got some way to go. But the fact that I’m now on my way back is the important thing and I can definitely see myself sitting down and writing every day again.

The feeling of ennui… I think it was because, like I mentioned before, it felt like I was living the same day over and over again and I was getting tired and disenchanted with the way things were going. Which isn’t exactly conductive to me doing well mentally…! (So, really, while it was still summer, it was definitely high time I got back to working on myself and everything again!)

There’s a lot going on in this enforcing schedule of mine but I think it’s something that I need to do and also something that I think I can do and will do. It’s not just writing, it’s everything else as well. Personal, physical, mental, everything.

What’s else… Oh! I’ve got someone coming in on Tuesday to sort out the plug socket on the wall – the one that’s been broken when the picture fell last Sunday – and hopefully that will definitely be the very last thing that I need to get done around the place for the foreseeable future.

Okay, think that’s pretty much everything. Gonna go make sure I’ve got my schedule lined up for the next week – this is including the 4 work days that I’ve got – and then… Well, pretty much gonna go back gaming and writing more on the guides again! *grins* See you soon!

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